Zinnirah...

Ramai juga bertanya dan memberi komen di facebook tentang Zinnirah:

Ma ma'na Zinnirah? (Apa maksud Zinnirah?) 

Uniknya nama.. 

Sedap nama...apa maksud Zinnirah?

Nama anak saya yang kedua ni diinspirasikan daripada kisah seorang wanita berbangsa Rom yang menjadi hamba kepada Umar Al Khattab pada awal-awal penyebaran agama Islam.Kisah beliau boleh dibaca di sini: Kisah Zinnirah 

Bila difikir kembali,rasa nama Zinnirah sangat sesuai dengan karakter anak kedua saya ini..Ketika hamil pada minggu ke 34, I was being informed by the doctor that my baby is so small and her growth did not seem encouraging. She weighed only 1.6kg at that time.

Doktor tanya kenapa kecik sangat anak awak ni...Are you in stress?

And...I couldn't say no.Masa tu terburailah air mata ini bila didesak oleh doctor to share what are my problems,hahaha... I admitted that I was very stressful this year,and most of the causes are due to office workloads (yesss, I blamed 'you'! =P). Masa tu rasa sedih sebenarnya, because I did not take a good care of myself and baby.Rasa cam I'm such a cruel Mommy...In order to compensate with what has happened and boost my happiness and ,I decided to eat more of my favourite food,lebih banyak bercakap dengan baby dalam perut and control my stress. Alhamdulillah,2 minggu selepas itu,the baby still grows dan betul-betul di atas range graf yang paling bawah sekali.Hence,the doctor decided to give the baby chance to grow in my tummy further since she did very well. You're so strong girl!=)

Zinnirah...though still dwelled in my tummy at that time, she had actually taught me many lessons in life and push me forward to go out from my comfort zone:

1. Don't forsake our health for work - I sometimes had problem with this...I usually skip my meal when I am busy and overload myself too much
2. Forgive others who did wrong to us - ok,ni biarlah rahsia,hehe..
3. Erti pergantungan pada Allah - during delivery, I did not take any medication sebab tak sempat...(nurse ingat lambat lagi makcik Intan ni nak beranak,cis cis...sakit dowhh...) but miraculously Allah helped me to bear with the pain..In fact, I was kinda ready and redha kalau tiba-tiba Allah takdirkan mati pastu..

Looking at her peacefully sleeping, I cannot helped myself to silently pray for her well being and to seek her forgiveness for my earlier wrongdoing as a mother.

Dear Zinnirah,

Ummi loves you so much.Ummi harap Zinnirah membesar menjadi anak yang solehah..Semoga kehadiran Zinnirah ke dunia ini diberkati dan disenangi orang-orang sekeliling termasuk Ummi dan Abi.

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